Saturday, March 31, 2007

Ragaam,Taanam and Pallavi




That is how my Saturday evening was spent.Under the massive roof called the sky,with lights from the heaven above and the Usatad with his young sons.

Hyderabad Times is on festive mood for the month of April.Summer has begun with the right note for us here.

A friend and I were at Chowmahala palace(see the pic) sitting down in the traditional way on a gadda,with hyderabadis around and listening to Ustad Amjad Ali Khan and his young sons Aman and Ayaan Ali Khan.What would one expect from this amazing combo.

The evening began with a tense traffic and non stop jams.Friend and I were getting tensed about missing the show.We were in what you called the human traffic torture cell for like 45 min.Thank god the vehicles decided to move(more like pedestrians decided not to walk in the middle of the road) and we reached the Palace.Waited outside for another friend who was getting us the passes.She missed the whole show cause she was stuck in the jam for like one hour.So she called it quits.So,what happens? a kind soul approaches us and sez"aap show miss hore,chalo andar chalo"(means u missing the show so go in) and we jumped and ran....

We were just in time to get out and parked right in front of the sound area.Just than began one of the many hypnotic moods in my life.I always have this smile on ma face when I sit for a recital.Let it be Ustad Amjad Ali,Sree Gangu Bai hangal Guru or Gundecha Bandu brothers.I was lucky to have my friend who shared the same taste.He began enticing the audience with three raagas.I loved the raag Ganesh Kalyani. He composed this in the memory of the Late Rajeev Gandhi.If you get this online download it.

The younger generation took the stage for the second hour.They played,however to get to where the Ustad is they would take some more time.

It was then that we were feasted with a perfect blend of music.

The father and sons played in symphony.Rabindranath provided them with inspiration from the era that indulged India and pampered the mother with rabindra sangeet.He played Ekla Chalo a pure bangali song.(I am going to learn this from my friend)
They then played Raag Kiranvani and the old lady next to me was hummin a traditional song along with Ustad.It was more like he was playing and she was singing for me!!!!

The best part of the evening was that my friend and I were extremely lucky to be surrounded by the generation of woman who were there to show the future what music meant.Like the technical manager who knew everything about raagas and was there with her family.She was telling her kids about arohan and avrohan,about the tabla and the sarood.She was excited for every chord that was played and she made our day by sitting next to us.Like the old lady next to me who was in her world of music,who sang for herself and for her soul....

Finale got over and it was then that I realised and always do, that India is a country of rich culture and we the future generation have to take a vow to protect it.We should not forget the old for the new and the hindustani/carnatic for hip hop or trance.Let us join hands and store the wealth and grow it and respect it like a "Grand Old Lady"

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Honesty is the best Policy????


Have you been ever dishonest to others in life?have you been dishonest to yourself?have you felt guilty for being so?

The Dictionary
dis-hon-es-ty = lack of honesty; a disposition to lie, cheat, or steal ,a dishonest act; fraud.


I have mulled over this for quite sometime and as I am writing this I still am.

Is dishonesty got to be only when you got to cheat or need to dawn that fraud mask?Will you forgive a person you love if/he she has been dishonest to you?Is it that every person who has been dishonest has to be considered a cheat for life?

My list is never ending,however I have my own opinions about this.Here are a few

1.I might not forget the deed done,I will surely forgive.
2.I will surely badmouth him/her on face and get over with it.
3.I will try and not stay in their shoes for the time needed and never will be able to.
4.there might be a deep down scare that it might happen again.However me being me will not think of that till it happens.
5.I will be hurt and will cry over for days,weeks,months to come until I get it out of my system.

I have been dishonest in life and I would not like to be treated bad,rude and be insulted in public.what I would like is what I would want for the other person tooo..

I am right in stating what I believe in!!

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Movies Ahoy!!!!!


It is very rare that I missed a good movie in the past 2 years.I was never an avid movie person.However S introduced me to the world of movies and it caught up on fast track basis.Oh boy I am glad for that.I now try and remember all the good ones and not limit my view to only regional or international(American to be precise).

So I have watched plenty and have quite a few directors already added to my fav list.Now yours truly wants to increase the list and also maintain a personal journal of all the movies,directors,script writers and everything about the movies I watch.Now comming to the most interesting part of my story here.

Hyderabad International Film Festival began on the 23rd of March.This is like serving south Indian meal in France kinda occasion to celebrate!!!
I was one among the privileged few to watch

Sarafina! It is a story of a young girl in South Africa and her conversations with Nelson as she calls Mandela.She is born and raised in the pre-nelson got out of prison era.She tells you the story of every kid.The emotions and the portrayal of the Protagonist is something that makes you want to stand up and salute her.It is about the Sarafina's battle of disappointment and adimiration and much more with the Mandela.She is a school goer and the school is fiercely guarded by police.It is when a battle breaks down at school and her fav teacher Mary Masombuka played by Whoopi Goldberg is arrested for teaching the truth,the war begins.

The students revolt against the system and the alien control on the mother land.The portrayal of the teacher and the student fall in place so perfectly,like words on a white sheet of paper.There dream is of a free,peaceful south Africa and the fight they have ahead is nothing compared to the dream of achieving....

Kudos to Darrell James Roodt he was born in South Africa and made another wonderful movie called "A palace of weeping".This movie he made was adapted from a stage musical.

May more movies tell us the reality of life around us and give us the inspiration to be a human being with heart to dream on......

Monday, March 26, 2007

The Four Minaret's






I was at one place the other day physically,which means I was in the era of Nizams for like 2 whole hours.That is when I had the out of body experience.Not that I was dead or mutated.I for once was in the world of photographic coma (2 words invented by me).Now,what is that and how did it happen seems like a dream.Was at the Charminar of Hyderabad.It is simply one of the most hypnotizing structures of the old world.It still retains the old world charm and you stand and wonder "how did they do this" in it's presence.Every time I visit this place,I am taken back into crazy thoughts. Like, what were the roads like?who lived in these houses?in one word I imagine myself living that era.so let me share the story behind the minar here and will upload a few pics too

It was built by Muhammed Quli Qutb Shah in 1591 to commemorate the eradication of plague.It is said that the emperor prayed for the end of plague and took a vow to build a masjid on that very place.He ordered the construction of the masjid which became popular as Charminar because of its four characteristic minarets. The top floor of the four-storey ed structure has a masjid which has 45 covered prayer spaces and some open space to accommodate more people on Fridays.

Charminar means 'Four Spires' (Char (Hindi) = four, Minar (Arabic manara) = (spire/tower).Once upon a time each of these arches led to four royal roads.Each of the four arches has a clock which were put up in 1889. The monument overlooks another beautiful and grand mosque called Makkah Masjid(more on this the next time).

149 winding steps guide the visitor to the upper floor, the highest point one can reach, and providing a panoramic view of the city of nawabs.This graceful monument is very beautiful on the inside, and is particularly known for its carvings and moldings. The painstaking details result in a graceful, lace-like look.If you visit Hyderabad do not miss these 4 minarets and bazaar of the bangles called the chudi bazaar(will write bout this later)

Welcome to my world of Hyderabad....

pic courtesy Google

Friday, March 23, 2007

Friday Word Step!!!!

first step I take and touch the snow flake,

second step I jump and give my self a bump (ouch!!!)

third step I dance in my crazy trance

fourth step I jive!! yes in it I am naive

fifth what a bliss,I blew myself a kiss,

sixth is near the creek,my knees tremble and I go weak

seventh I cross the river,the water is cold and I shiver

eight is alrite,there is no fright.

ninth step, am there and glare and glare

tenth is where is see my soul waiting for me...

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Thoughts...

Ok so I am a wizard for the day..that is what a quiz I have taken sed.. (courtesy another blogger) It is a good ego boost for my ego I guess!!!

An old acquaintance passed way today and I got to know of it "matter of fact" all I could say was "bless his soul".Now,as I am writing I am thinking hmmm what everyone would say or do when I die??? A fellow blogger aditi was right in asking her question about death.So,am I scared of it? No,I am not. Here are few things I want myself and people to do If I knew I'd die in a couple of days.

1.I want to leave behind my little one in kind hands when I die.
2.Die peacefully in the presence of my family and friends.
3.Leave mysterious diaries behind.They can be published.
4.Some one to carry and and write my blog on how they miss me.
5.A neat rock show for my soul :)
6.Throw a party and invite kids to it.
7.Some one I know writing and making many meaningful movies and dedicate one off beat one for me ;)
8.My parents being strong for my son and for themselves
9.Throw my ashes in ganga near kali ghat in Kolkata
10.Hmmm I am actually think I can add more to this list

How bout you guys???

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

What made me think today????


There is no reason for anyone in this world to be left out and felt alone.If you have been feeling that way for sometime now look around you.there will be a blessing in disguise,hidden in somewhere in some corner waiting for you.

The above was my 2 paisa thought for the day :)

Now I have taken part in amateur photography contest.this was on a network that I am a member of.I had thought I'd leave the network,cause it is useless,you do get in touch with many pals.however,it seems like this throbbing network filled with unwanted mess(anyways that is another topic all together).So,what happens? nothing much I do not even get qualified.That aww broke my already bandaged heart.Then I thought to myself let me bring up something of my own...I have this plan and thank god to my frnd and myself.We are planing to start an exhibition in my town.Yes,photography one only....

Remember I was talking about my Smile bank.If I earn any money a little will go towards it.That is good for starts..Now tragedy strikes and my digicam that is my only cam does not work :(...The other one which is quite Minolta you see is sitting in the shop for quite sometime now.The old man at the shop I think is in love with it.He refuses for me to touch it..anyways I will get it out and start click.I will post them here too and u get to rate them and be a part of my exhibition poll....

Find my old pic that is going on the wall here....

Yippee I am already excited and gotta get this done fast fast and now........

Monday, March 19, 2007

What Women Want???

This may sound like a crazy trip and it is....

It is natural for me a new century woman to assume that all is well in the world of women.However there have been few incidents in and around me that made me think.

what is an independent women and is it that we need to blame ourselves to things that happen to us?

I have a great Circe of friends.I can vouch that if i pack my bags and walk out and knock on their door,they will open their doors and hearts for me.I too would do the same for them.However,what if a friend is not ready to knock on my door.Most women around me seem to be going through this strange phase of individual crisis.I was talking to a GF yesterday and we came to a conclusion that if we let someone walk over us,it is not his/her fault,but it is ours.Don't you agree??

I have been trying to help a friend for the past 7 years.She lost her individuality living with her husband who according to her is trying to change.Trying to change after 7 years of making her into a "paranoid,scary and dependent women" give it up.

I gave up trying to help a year ago.However when I went to meet her the other day.I was broken inside out to see her.She was crying out loud for help.I am not sure if I will ever help her with a positive outlook and heart..

I want her to cherish her womanhood,i want her to celebrate the old her.i want her to dream crazy and full fill her dreams.I promise to be with her and lend my hand again.If she refuses to hold it I will slap her and ask her to hold it.If she leaves me again and goes back to the shell..... ......

might just end up and stop believing in the word called you can...

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Help UNICEF!!!!!

http://friends.unicefusa.org/r/563dfdcc2697102aa29c

The link is for you to fill in your and friends details..$5 will be donated to UNICEF on your Behalf...I think 3 min of your time is worth this effort..So go on do not hesistate.it is not spamming,easy and 3 simple clicks can help a child...

Friday, March 16, 2007

Dance

Borrowed Friday word.....

Dance
Hear those anklets moving to the rhythm,
Hear the silence in the podium.

She was nervous,he was curios,
She prayed to him,he choose not to answer.

The dance began,the flow was smooth,
She could not tell herself that this was the truth.

He sat in one corner,with a pen and pad,
Writing and sketching,that is all he had.

The energy was roaring,there was a divine presence,
the mood,the audience were all part of the perfect essence.

The finale begin,she moved her body,her mind and soul,
She was dancing to the beat,the song,nothing to stop her from this route.

Then it was over,just the way it began,
There was no one to witness the final bow.

She said a silent prayer to the stranger in the audience,
He was not there for us to witness,as he was in the world were life meets death...

Thursday, March 15, 2007

10 min....

Have you ever taken time out say like 10 min,closed everything around you and asked yourself.

What is that I really want in Life?

I did that today, a pal asked me to do it .I want to do many things and achieve many more.If counted my fingers would not be enough.So,she said try this once everyday and you will know at the end of 10 days what is that one thing you really want....Now I can just say hey all I want is happiness and chapter close....however I decided to try it and see if I can get to the bottom of the list or top....try and let me know what u think????

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

I love thee i mean me

So,what was I doing during the whole weekend.. Loving me!!! I was my old self again.Thanks to some decisions made by me in my sleepy mood.This was a great thing i did in many days. I realised I have loads of things to be happy about and will be for sure.Now how did I celebrate the new me?By going to a strangers party and getting piss drunk...Driving through the streets of my city Singing"Rubaruu".(of course my friends were there to push the car and me :)

If you have something beautiful in front of you.Many of us ignore that and look for greater things.I say first learn to enjoy what you have and then look ahead.I wrote a poem earlier about asking time to wait.Well it will never....I realised that few days ago and it is bliss..............

Friday, March 9, 2007

My Visual DNA

Open House

I read this article in a Mag yesterday...

Open House

I am writing in my own words--Once upon a time there lived a couple in Delhi,the man and the women worked throughout the day and they came back home to there loved ones...However the loved ones included not only family but friends who lived in there house from all over the world. Apparently the house was open to everyone who was looking for a meal,roof on top or a warm hug.there was a German student who lived with them for 6 months.Another kid who came to their doorstep and went onto live with them for life.the lady of the house urged him to study,he did and went on to become an accountant in a leading firm...

Now isn't this absolutely wonderful and beautiful thing you come across. I don't think this kinda cause will be taken up by everybody.First hell lots of apprehensions,when a stranger comes in,who is she/he,how long will he stay? is he/she a good person? what if they rob us or steal from us? and many more......

I realised that once we open our hearts to others no harm can be caused and god forbid if any harm is done,then we learn our lessons and be careful. I really hope I have the guts to do this one day.

Smile Bank

I started this community in orkut a couple of months ago.Have i done a teeny weeny thing about it? no shame on me no. This was started by me to help the street kids in Hyderabad.To bring a smile on the little one's face.

So people help me tell me what should I do? I mean how do I approach these kids on streets and help them?? I really want to :)

anyone who lives in Hyderabad contact me on orkut for the same....




Thursday, March 8, 2007

Profuse..

Today and days for long have been absolutely un productive (is there a word like that)...As usual I got up very late and jumped into shower.Got few calls from friends and family.Drove to a friends place to have coffee and landed in office.

So,you see there has been nothing unusual about the day.

Then I realised today happens to be Worlds Women's Day albiet!!

Here is my thanks to the woman who made a diff in my life..

Amma--She is born under the sign of Leo and true to her sign is a typical lioness.She is fierce and protective about her tribe.She is strong inside out and years have made her look old.She lost a son to death.Still she holds onto his thoughts and lives life for tomorrow.Her daughter is her hope and her grandson her future.She is one women who took our family into her hands when we hit rock bottom and survived every little obstacle.god bless her and her heart..Thanks Mom for being there...

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

this is how I feel....

Have I wished for anything more?
I wished for something that was available.
Had I not seen the future together?
Was I in denial all through this time??

Life my love has it's own ways,
It just showed me mine and yours.....
Would I want happiness alone?
Would I share it with you and my blood????

I respect the thoughts that flow across us,
like two streams joining one vast ocean....

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

CommitMeNt!!!!

Why wont he commit??? this is my dilemma for now.I have been seeing John Doe for like more then a year now and the sentence "where do go from here?"is still on hold. From my end I have explained myself clearly to him. He knows what I am looking for and want. I am not asking for him to loose his freedom or his persona. I am asking him to make me a part of it. I realised it is very hard for the male physic to think like women do....

It is like we are stuck in a time capsule for now..I can hear the tapping and the nerves are surely gonna break...

I can jump at the first sign of panic and save myself the heartache of attachment and endless tears,(which I did not cause i Love him) My friends say they will kill him.Yeah right I am the one who is in love and I know him better..So,relax my friends.It is my heart and his heart who are talking.

I can sit there on the turbulent seas of his indecisiveness hanging on for dear life and praying that I don't get tossed overboard before I find his emotional life preserver... but hey... should i bother that is the question "TO be or not to be"

Monday, March 5, 2007

Listen..

Now, this is a huge thing. On my end to listen to someone for a while...I was with my boss today.She was going on and on about her life and I wanted to say "hey stop I really do not want to listen to you".I got my own problems.So,please shut up....

Tell me isn't it strange to feel this way.I mean you want other to lend you an ear when you want and you ignore when they want you to?? I am normally not like this ,but generally end up this way. My friends and family think othewise..they say I listen to everyone else except myself..Shash sez the same.Infact he moves between me not payin attention to me giving ear to every ram,sita and geeta.....

So,go figure out and let me know wht is good...lending a decent ear or grabbing one by force......

Sunday, March 4, 2007

Stop..dont move

I asked life to stop for me,
It looked at me and laughed aloud.
She said,u must be kiddin love,
I stop for none.
I asked her to try once,
She said I will ,the day time stops......

Friday, March 2, 2007

Future???

I am generally not a kind of person who is worried about future.Have been living life for the present and past never effected me in anyways.However,my thoughts have changed and I surprised myself this year.

I want to settle down in life.Yes,people that means I want to get married.Now I have been thinking a lot about it.I had numerous discussions with Friends,family and not to forget the one I am in love with.these have been taken into consideration.

Now,my friends and family think it is high time i get married and get myself a life.Is this all I mean I have a great life I thought?in fact do not get me wrong here.My life is great.My love though had different reasons.He has his right to have his own.He is not ready for marriage and thinks that we should not get married for a reason.

Well after these discussion I thought bout this and decided to wait.Then I questioned and asked wait for what? I mean if I want to get married and feel secure I bloody well have the right to think so.Don't I?

Initially I let myself and my guy give into his thoughts.Not to please him,cause at that point I too felt that I was being pressured by people around me.Then after a while I knew I was missing the part altogether.I am a modern,liberated women.I am a single mother.I brought my son into this world against all odds.SO ,where is the need for security.I already have one my son.But,I need security,i need comfort and I need marriage.I know the guy loves me and I know he will never be away from my heart.But,the thought of a home with my husband and my son fills me with joy.....I really don't know if that thought is wrong.............