Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Mature, Me?



As I write this post I overcome or i thought i did a very emotional issue that has been hitting me for a long time now.They say what you sow is what you reap and that is so true.No matter what part of the world you are.No matter how rich or poor you are and no matter whatever it is. When you hurt someone or did something wrong it will haunt you and come back to you and slap you on your face. the older am turning the more I am getting closer to this reality.

I did many wrong things.Few I did with out knowing that I was and few I knew. Only from one that I remember the intention was not to hurt or cause any damage to anyone. However, It dawns on me that things will be better from now on. My realization came quite late, close to when am hitting the big 30. The good part is that "better late than never". We all make mistakes and learn from them and trust me I learn a hell lot from mine.


I miss my days when i had nothing to worry about.had no choices to make and not a thing that would bother me.I am glad in a way the right now things bother me a lot.However, I have choices to make and decide what to worry about and what not too.

as they say "the older you grow that better it gets"....am on the lookout for that path...

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Moods etc etc

I was a t a friends party last night and had a great time dancing,singing and meeting people.The best thing about that party that a friend and i discovered that the vibes of the people in that house ( we were a bunch of 50 odd people) were amazingly positive. That is when i realized that my fun was to do with my state of mind too. the vibe that i gave out was positive and that made sure I shared it with everyone I knew in that party.

What is the point of being in a good party and not enjoying it and sulking all the way through.You'd rather sit at home and sulk by yourself. The thing is that when you are in a bad mood and and at good place 2 things can happen

1. you can make the people around you sad by sulking

2. you start to enjoy the good vibes and feel better.

i know a friend who sulks quite often at places where there are more than 2 people and the sulking makes her whole evening or night shit.In the process we around her also start feeling irritated and here goes the evening. Now if this person started to enjoy herself first and feel happy about herself then things would turn out to be better. I am not saying everyone has to be or will be happy 24/7 all am saying is that life is crap at times and when you are lows nothing can happen but lift you to high. so Enjoy the high right now rather than waiting for the lows or better inviting them yourself.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Rumi said this !

over's nationality is separate from all other religions,
The lover's religion and nationality is the Beloved (God).

The lover’s cause is separate from all other causes
Love is the astrolabe of God's mysteries

* the above is from Masnavi

Rumi's universality

What can I do, Submitters to God? I do not know myself.
I am neither Christian nor Jew, neither Zoroastrian nor Muslim,
I am not from east or west, not from land or sea,
not from the shafts of nature nor from the spheres of the firmament,
not of the earth, not of water, not of air, not of fire.
I am not from the highest heaven, not from this world,
not from existence, not from being.
I am not from India, not from China, not from Bulgar, not from Saqsin,
not from the realm of the two Iraqs, not from the land of Khurasan
I am not from the world, not from beyond,
not from heaven and not from hell.
I am not from Adam, not from Eve, not from paradise and not from Ridwan.
My place is placeless, my trace is traceless,
no body, no soul, I am from the soul of souls.
I have chased out duality, lived the two worlds as one.
One I seek, one I know, one I see, one I call.
He is the first, he is the last, he is the outer, he is the inner.
Beyond "He" and "He is" I know no other.
I am drunk from the cup of love, the two worlds have escaped me.
I have no concern but carouse and rapture.
If one day in my life I spend a moment without you
from that hour and that time I would repent my life.
If one day I am given a moment in solitude with you
I will trample the two worlds underfoot and dance forever.
O Sun of Tabriz (Shams Tabrizi), I am so tipsy here in this world,
I have no tale to tell but tipsiness and rapture.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Sinlge land anyone

So being 29 and single and a mother of a 5 year old is all it takes to make yourself easy target for pity stories and talk about.(good way to get talked bout) :P

1.don't go out in the night,you are single and prey for single men (praise the lord are they any single men out there!!!!!!!!!!)

2.be careful of what you say,it might sound like you are too headstrong single girl (pardon me for saying what I think)

3.Hi,so sweetie how are you today ( this coming from a random guy who i just met and thinks calling me sweetie is a way of warming up)

4.don't swear you have a son ( hmmm what does swearing got to do with me having a son,that too when i do not swear in front of him)

5.I have to listen to people tell me how sad my life is with out a man (why cause i have to fill in gas on my own,duh i have the pump guy to do it)

6.Pray to this Goddess she will grant you a boon of a good husband (if i want a boom,i would want to be rich and famous)

this are just 6 sigma effects , talk to me and will tell you more...

Sunday, December 14, 2008

My Way to FUTURE!

We spoke, we watched,we cried,we yelled,we abused we did all that we can do in anger.What next?
We lit candles, we marched down the alleys,we shouted loved ones names in vain.What next?
We sent our sympathy, we spoke about in coffee shops and pubs,we argued about it in homes and offices,we heard a lot.What next?

I do not know about everyone else.However I know for sure that this is my NEXT

No Religion,No Color,No Cast.

No one will teach their kids that this is a bad religion or this is my religion.Tell each kid that every religion is to be treated equally and with respect.Like how you treat your family members.

No Color was banned years ago.However these days the color of skin is come far unfair. Just cause you wear an orange turban you become bad and just cause you sport a red beard you become an enemy? Let color not define your self dignity.

No cast - Who are you and I to create cast blocks.You and I are no GOD and I don't think GOD created cast.He created Human Kind!

Please please let the ears not close or eyes doze.Let there be a guard on 24 hours for my Son has to see a Tomorrow.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

change!



*pic clicked by moi!

I have begun to grow up in my mind.well the thing is that, most things that seemed dramatic are not that dramatic. the way i look at life is much simpler and better.I think not in rush but in calm mind and of course, I am more open. the key thing is paying attention while others are talking and listening.storing those thoughts and then thinking over.I think am ready for you life !

Monday, November 17, 2008

It feels like the my emotions will take a back step when i get to 30.

actually "3o's are the beginnings of an unknown life"

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

September Snooze Part IV

So all said and done her life was not that worse with out a guy who broker heart.It rater seemed OK.I mean it was her first time entrance into Heart breakers club!

So she was busy doing things that normal kids of her age that is teenage do.Smoking pot,running away from home,breaking rules and yes she tasted her first sip of the so called spirit too.Why are you going away like this? asked her mother.She did not want to answer any one and if that means mother or father or brother.She did not want to answer period.All she said was "Ma non of your business".this was not a movie,where you say anything and get away.She got a thrashing of her life.That is it,she decided to stay mum for life.Never to tell people to mind their own business."she is getting out of control,we have to do something about it" discussed parents.That is all they did discuss,instead of talking to her,rather they started to threaten her and that made matters worse.She thought to herself,"I am ,not an animal to be tied and threatened around".I have a voice and I need to be heard.

Unfortunately for her,the voices had to do with the things that normal kids do,which is mentioned above.This is how life went on.She was a college perfect and by the end of 1rst year,she was not even around the college to perfect her studies.This was gone unnoticed.Only to be discovered when they was an ornament that went missing in the house."you must have stolen it to buy something or treat your friends at some fancy club",they said.He he if that was the matter,don't you think you would be with no ornaments today om"she said.Thwack came the blow on her cheek.Then they thought of college and came to find out that she was no being punctual.They did monitor it for a week and puff it went out of interest again.Why did anyone never talk to her,like ask her,she thought and thought every time that teen smoked that dam stick....

Thursday, October 30, 2008

September Snooze Part III

She thought and then realized It was her and then it was the other men. First it was the man who brought her into the world.No, wait first it was the man who created her,then after that it was the man who brought her into the world.So it has been men from the beginning and then later it was her.

So now she remembers the first time.She was sitting there at the counter."Hey, you here, stand in the queue.No one moves away from the line",she said.He was just adamant,kept pushing people aside. Cannot you hear what Am saying? are you deaf or are you twisted in your bloody north Indian head.Firstly she had her exams on her mind and on top this was the first time her city was hosting the convention and all had to go well.To top it she had to deal with morons like this.Argh 10th exams were better than him she thought. ( 10th , yes he was the 3rd man to break her heart,so that was it,3rd her count kept increasing).They soon kept their distance in the campus that was allocated for the convention.However they were brought together by Kumar Sir the head of the Organization and they had no choice but to stick together and soon that hate turned into something special.She remembers how he held her hand,when they went on city tour.how they looked at each other when the Gundecha Bandhu brothers were singing Drupadh.the tender touch of hands when Pandit HP was Tuning his Flute.

The days just did not seem too long.Soon It was time to leave and she had to let him go.He called her from Delhi and they kept in touch though mails.His friends created an email id for him. Rather a silly one that reminded them of him and her.Kiddish things we do sometimes,that id is still used by him.However the whole thing changed when S came to city.She was there on a visit to her college and was staying with me.I was dropping her to college and I noticed this lovely watch."That is a nice watch,you got there",I said.Oh,this,He gave it to me,She said(he,here was the bloody north Indian in the beginning of the story).That tone was somewhat eerie.Then she went on to tell me how they started to see each other after the trip (see now I got the point of why I was a moron when the boy said,I am sorry a 1000 times on the phone whenever he called).See that is when my heart broke.First time

To be contd....

Sunday, October 19, 2008

September Snooze Part II

This is continuation of the story September Snooze

She loves to be around him,however there was a void.It was not that she did not like him,or nor that she did not laugh at his jokes and so on.However the thing here was that everyone did laugh at his jokes and loved him to death and wanted to be around him.He was like this..hmm...hmm..ring leader who knew exactly what to do when and keep the ring intact. did she want to be a part of the ring like everyone? I do not think so. She wanted to be felt special.Like the special feeling a man has for a women.She wanted to feel the difference between her and the rest in his head and heart.

Days went by and the thought of him and her moved on. Ironic just like the clouds in September.She was right about him liking her.However she started to wonder why was it not the same.Her heart never let itself go.Never not even once.Even if it did,it came back.She did not want that.She wanted her heart to go and stay with that man for years to come and even after lifetime.

Maybe it ( her heart) did many times wanted to stay with the Man;s heart or mind.But at the end,it felt cheated or did not get the same response.It might have not given the same love or might have expected more in return.That is why her heart was still wandering.She started to wonder about all the men in her life and what or who caused her heart not to trust any? The thought made her shudder , as she did want to hear the answer.Could it be the other men or could it be her?

To be Contd...

Sunday, September 28, 2008

September Snooze- Part 1

It was magical; the whole atmosphere was filled with sweet scent. It smelled what you call “just before the rain”. She looked at him from the corner of her eye. She noticed him few times before. Yet I think it was the past her that was stopping the present her from making the first move. She wanted to say hello. She wanted to let him know, that she feels he is there for her. Well, she was being practical. A sense of insecurity crept through her bones she was not letting her self go again. Thinking of the move and the effects on her heart, she let it be.

They met again and the magic was still alive. They did not speak a word. Yet, she could feel herself drowning in his words. His eyes spoke the words. His eyes asked her all the secrets that she could never let go. He was her spectator and she was the performer or the other way around. They were with friends. With people they connect through. She was hoping he would walk past and take her with him. He did, he walked up to her and said a hello. The smile said it all; she knew that she was his for the night or days to come. She could not promise herself for a lifetime. Because that lifetime is what she treasures the most? That lifetime would be shared with whom again?

TO BE CONT.....

Monday, September 22, 2008

Percentage i guess

was chatting with a friend and realized that there are more than 90% who care for me .....nice,nice,nice...that means my 100% and them makes it 190%...good for me though....

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

question

the reason to survive seems to be obscure.however does everyone have a reason to live?

Thursday, August 28, 2008

The Wait...........

this month can be associated with lots of emotions.I staged my first play on the 20th of August 2008.It was an amazing journey.

I wanted to write a play to and I did. It shaped OK. However, my question was how do I take this forward? I had no one to go to. In fact when the play was written I was not sure that it would be staged and so on.

Then came in a friend,after a drink we were discussing about my writing and the days to go when my stories so light and so forth.She then asked me to mail her the play that wrote. I did promptly as asked. I got a call one day from this friend,she asked me to come over and meet her director.This place is called GOETHE-ZENTRUM HYDERABAD.So there I was in the office,waiting for the director.She is a lovely lady.my friend bless her muah.got this done for me.we spoke and the lady who is the director,heard me out and she pulled out her calender and was like when would you want to do this play.I was like , wait does this mean a yes or a no.She was like of course it means a yes.You must imagine I was thrilled to bits.

So the date was decided and then all I had to do was go back and find that perfect actor and the perfect child for the play.the mails kept going back and forth on the date and the venue.Me and his friend went to an awesome school, I would have loved to have the play there. However, it was way to far.My fear was , who would come all this way to see a play by me?. which was and is true.Then there was a another place called the Vidyasagar Arts Center.This place too seemed like heaven.but the rains were the question.So , that was pushed aside.So my dear Friend was busy looking for a place for the play.

My actors - I wanted another dear friend to play the role of the old woman in my play. Dear K was all excited and ready.However her working hours were so busy that she was dead beat.So I then approached another Friend S,she was reluctant at the beginning.then after cajoling and coaxing she agreed. ( I could not have asked for a better actor). I needed a younger actor and voila her son Sharan was the best and the naughtiest boy for the play. All fell in place. My challenge was to bring out the emotions in my actors as they are first timers and have nothing to do with acting.they did not choose this as profession. One is a housewife and another is a school going chirpy kid.They did not take much time.It was as if i wrote the roles for them. Music which is an essential part of our play was provided by another friend Prashanth.He was right on Track and gave me sounds that blend with the play.Voila the play was going. It had it's ups and downs. But who cares now,the timing was just right!

I was expecting an audience of 25 to 50, but when someone walked out to check.The place was filled with 250 odd people. My heart could have been running faster.My head was numb and blank. It took 2 hugs from my dear ones for me to get going and the mad look from my son...The show went on to be a good.yes i call it good, I could have done better.The Q&A session went on for more than the play.It was so moving to see people react to something I wrote so personal.I wish my writing never stops and my motivation never dies.

My parents face flashed in front of me after the play.They had tears of joy flowing freely. I guess it was ok for It was the first time I saw them so happy after Vijay's phase.I was sitting with a dear friend whose face told me a number of things.I was happy to be there, just there at the end with people i care and who love me more than I ask for....

It takes a lot of people to bring a show to the stage. I thank everyone who was involved in this process......without you I would not have not been able to move and The wait would have never got over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Hands that hold the world?

if she or he whoever it is gave us life, then don't you think that person should give us the direction of life? sometimes you get so tired going the wrong way that when the right path comes, you tend to ignore.you do this becasue you are done with taking these paths alone.

Personally I feel the guiding hand should be there with you and be visible instead of the invisible hand. you really have no clue where to hold the invisible as you cannot see it.

hands have been thre for me when i needed but only for their comfort.the day they came across the path for them,they just left mine.

So guide me and for god's sake show me the visible one..........

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

the trip makes it up for all the times i have talked about it. for the times that i have imagined it in my head...

I was planning and planning like i was going to a war.I said yes, i have to go and then no I cannot go.The pro's and the con;s were measured.The "what will I do if it does not work out? and the what if i decide this was a bad idea half way through the trip? phew............

I went at last,throw the questions away and just go.......that I did came back feeling light as a feather :)

Monday, July 28, 2008

Before and Beyond..........

she can still hear the Drupad,
the laughter and the sounds that the night left behind.

she can still hear the ghunghroo,
the lights of the fort and the soft kiss.

her eyes tell her that he is looking at her,
the thought of that is like a thousand butterflies flying through the navel

she can still see the clouds,
with him walking by.

she can can still feel his warmth,
the tender lovemaking.

she can still remember the last line spoken,
the last of the heart beat,after she closed the door.

she waits for those footsteps to be heard again,
the ones that bring her hope from the past to a future that is unknown.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Is it worth it ?

So yesterday was a wholesome day...a day I realized what I should have realized few years ago..or maybe eons ago.Like the thought that always ran in my mind was that "when you are in love with someone for real you never judge them".I live by that rule and until yesterday I thought most of the people I love lived by that rule too.

However i was wrong!!! and that hit me hard.Here is the guy who loved me for all his life and told me a hundred times that he is always there for me.Well it seems his being there has a lot of additions to it.Like one for example is the bit about judging. He tells me I like you,your are welcome to be with me. However,I will get suspicious of you, cause of the relationships you had in the past.Which translates to "if you get friendly with a man,I will think u are sleeping with him or doing something naughty".

My heart broke,this is from a man who tells me that no one should judge people by the past.Wonder what is this all about.Is this a revenge tactic or is it just that words are easier said than actions?

I was there thinking for a bit " shit I deserve this".But then hey wait, I do not.I must have had my reasons to do what I did or behave the way I did.Just cause I did it once, you are no one to JUDGE me.

*point being every one in this world has reasons for what they do,some do not. Like they just do it for the heck of it. However, they are own individuals and they can live life in whichever way it pleases them.Don't be a cynic,ask them why they did it.If you ask them they will tell you.When they tell you,you will know,that it is best to know first hand than to imagine and accuse..........

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Child Woman!!!!!!!

they come and they go,
they flatter me away.
they ask me no questions,
they give me no words.
who can they be!
they come in every thoughts.

* me wrote this as a child of 7,it makes up for 29 too :)

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Sunday, July 13, 2008

time and space

isn't it too late now? isn't it time it arrives? isn't it supposed to be here? is it ok to think this way? i have a feeling it is alright..however where is it?????/

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Life and stories around them.....

What is it with movies and life.Sometimes they end up so similar that you are "hey wait that is the solution" or "hey wait that is my life" or wait that is a true story and people did that so why not me.....

Today I went to watch 21,it was amazing what the mind can do and of course a true story.A bunch of MIT guys and gals with brain and attitude make millions on black jack.Well they banned from LA,but,hey they did make money before they got banned.I can do that but I need a team to do that.Anyone listening?

Or the Movie Fairy tale,about 2 innocent girls who believe that they have seen fairies and captured them in their clicks.this is then researched by skeptic Harry Houdini and legendary dreamer Sir Arthur Conan Doyle.The fairies bit was not true at the end.But hey they made realize that innocence and truthfulness is not lost.


Came out of the theater thinking all u need it guts and loads of belief in you.That i have.

I believe in myself more than anyone.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Take a Flying F***

"oh life is like that...you got to move on and take in that little bit of bitterness".

"What that hell was that supposed to mean? hello, I like life ,but was this life not supposed to be easy?.

Bitterness my A**. Get out of here , if anyone sez take it with a pinch of salt. I have done so many pinches of salt, feel i am in a sea filled with salt water....so anyone who is patronizing go take a flying F***

Sunday, June 22, 2008

god said GO

so god said " here you go gal find your self a man". I was like "hello help required here". he said, what help are you talking about gal.I made you out of clay,wait first i found clay of your kind and then made your whole body and put in emotions and all that jazz,for what? so that you have a mind of your own."now go get on with life and move on to that place called earth go go...............

so i landed on earth survived crap and life and love and every blah blah blah blah....

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

wandering mind

it is a riddle that is waiting to be solved.
my head is scattered like a puzzle looking at it.

the players involve people i love,like and hate at the same time,
they say " come on don't be callous,make a move".

one move from here and the end will come over before i blink....

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Content



she stands there asking for alms...
they toss a coin into her arms.
she is happy with what they give...
never demands for more.

is she happy with her life???
better than u and me around.....

Pic courtesy Google

Friday, May 23, 2008

ZZZZZZZZZZZ

sometimes peace is the most wanted thing.for me it is necessary to get that peace of mind...i could have seem to hit the bed with out thoughts that disturb for the past 10 odd years....how does it feel like to hit sack without troubles????????????

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

NOT FOR ALL POST.........

Sometimes you tend to rant about your past.I think it is quite ok to do it.don't you?

A soul look at the past...wondering how much more will it last....like the tears they bring and the laughter they invoke...these are the emotions that remind you of life that has gone by......

I went out to have chai today at the YOP..it felt lost...the laughter that was in there was toasted goodbye....will it stay that way? i am not the one to answer....let time tell...............

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Love Bites...............

i said "i love you".

"do you know that it means hurting yourself" he said

"love sometimes does bring in pain" i said...

the phone rang and we left.......

something there was left unanswered and i knew that if the answer was heard...i would be weeping silently for the closed heart.......................

Friday, March 7, 2008

me now and forever

i think i have a problem with myself...that is that i want people to be away from we for a few days....but want them back whenever i feel like.....

more like recluse....do i care for people or do i realy care for myself...that is a big question here......things tend to change in life and my life is full of changes.......i want some money to get rid of few things.......want to live in a house that includes me and my son...visit my parents on a weekend....want someone to be a part of my life......hope it works out.......want to direct a movie in another year and want to get rid of burdens.........want a carefree life..............

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

This is how it is.....

it has been a working day today and yesterday.Felt involved in what is happening around and was doing what i like.

Sometimes i think if u miss that liking, u get distracted. I am more of a writer and right now i want to involved in that stage and the whole film making. However the doubts pop up in my mind.Like today, "was it this that i came in for" or "is this going to bring in positive thoughts" and many more.The reason is that i feel useless wen i am not actively working like all of us do.I am more the kind who tells someone what i think.However,as I mentioned in the earlier post it is getting way too difficult to judge the exact situation.May be it is too early to think of all this.Maybe the earlier movie gave me free hand and i was involved actively in everything.It is happening here,no one sez u stop that,u are not fit for it.But that inhibition that "oh should i talk now and give my opinion" is running in my head constantly.I hope i get over it or do something.

Apart from that few things and talking to few friends brought my thought process about life back to where it was.Spoke to A Bhai,who is like my elder bro and he did listen me out.That is what i was looking for someone to hear me out.Like a sounding board.....

Life is getting too upside down at home...hope it does not stay stagnant like that...

Sunday, February 24, 2008

My day at work

son turned 4 yesterday.had a great time with him and his friends and family.
back to work today and feel like i have to get going fast or i will die out of thoughts.

One of the main things about the film industry is that you got to have lot of patience.I am not the person who has immense talent to handle that.I have been working on a movie and for now i have nothing firm to do.The thing here as one of my friends mentioned is that "you have not one job,but loads of things to do in a movie".It is not like a desk job,it is a job that involves in thinking on feet.my feet are not that sore yet and that is why i keep running around instead of thinking at one point.

I am right now sitting with the producer the main Ad's and i want to speak up.However I keep thinking,should i or not? reason for that I want to still wait and learn.Wait for the right opportunity said my brain and that is what I am doing.When is the right time to speak up I ask myself again and it sez now.I know it is contradictory to what I said in this same paragraph.

That is how my mind is working right now too confused and full of shit........

Saturday, February 23, 2008

THe Story BeIGns

been here in the production office for the past 1 week.I am excited about the project.The main thing about accepting a project has got a lot to do with the script and the unit for me.

So when i walked in I was greeted by a friendly yet firm crew members.The thing about me is that i am plain honest and do not like the mediocre running around the trees shit.

been taking care of few things.I am not yet sure on the act though.however being a part of this crew seems to give me hope that there are people who respect cinema.

that i think counts much at the end of the day.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Surviving

the past week has been a rollacoster ride for my ego..........I always thought that i would get everything that i want. I went for interviews during my corporate phase and got jobs after one interview.no hard work but a lot of right attitude.However things seems to be different in the present field.I finished working on one movie.I got it all right. DOne with it the crew out and the director is out of country.

Was on a break for a month and then i thought all i had to do is walk in and get the job. No boy no it is not that easy. Here is the part of the creative industry, you got be creative in your approach. I learned that after meeting few directors. However I did decide that when i am in a position to recruit the crew, I would push everything that i learnt aside and start a new trend.I would make an attempt to call them and let them know the results ASAP, Cause waiting for the next project is tough and waiting for a call is tougher. your ego keeps slidign down and you look at phone and walk around with it like the last survivor on earth.........

Thursday, February 7, 2008

SAKI GIRL


I am fast asleep,deep in slumber and not dreaming a bit. i was nudged first and then scratched and then yelled upon.I get up walk my way out and open the door.Look at the wall clock and the time sez"it is that time of the night where world sleeps". Was dam angry and wanted to get back into my cozy bed,however when i looked out saw her jumping and attacking the soft toy and wanting me to attack it too..so did i as told...

Saki girl is the new addition to our family.She is a cutie litthle,lab pup.I was waiting to get my sonny boy a friend for his 4th birthday.I was thinking how to budget the same.Then came a phone call asking me if I can pick up Saki for the owner who is my friend Arun bought this dog for her daughter and now they had some issues with the dog (not personal). So voila it was god's ways of telling me go go girl pick up the little joy.

I jumped in the car and drove to her and Chechi sat with her in the car while we drove her back home.

She is nearly settled and is sleeping near me feet ( cannot move them)....pissed a million times,shat 10 times and the house smelles like we have SAKI.......................

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Huppy and Syad...

the thing about life is that it seems bad and worse in a second and after a second it is full of joy and fun...i am going through that phase....one minute this and one minute that. few sad and few fun situations

1.son eat a whole slice of pizza-- ha ha if u thinking why this was fun,try and make a 3 year old eat a pizza without dropping..try buddy try...

2.got news that my bro is trying to communicate with me - it is hard when he is nto alive and i am lloking for a mediator to talk to him

3.kishore made my day,he makes it everyday - but what better then hearing him say how mauch he loves me..yeah yeah i am smiling here...

4.amma walked into the room and fainted and cursed me - cause for this faintness...my room was smelling like ciggi company

5.smits was feeling low in life and i felt bad looking at her shed tears - never want that woman to cry ever...i am there for you love..we are all there for you...

6. brought in my birthaday with special few - i loves it ya i loved it...

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Why Ya

Conversation between 2 tamilians...

err you got to excuse my broken tamil

wonman - enga pore (where are you going?)
twoman- down town pore ( am going to town)

wonman - why da downtown pora? (why are you going to downtown)
twoman - town ki poyi one peg down poda pore da....(i will go to town and put one peg down that is why)

i am finding this dam jokey ya.....

Number 2

A man takes his pregnant wife to punjabi dhaba..

Man - i want one paneer butter masala and roti packed and also delivered

Dhaba Guy - sir ji i wil pack and all but how i can deliver sirji

Man - why? why cannot you deliver?

Dhaba Guy (lookign at the wife) - sirji that is tho your wife's job..

he he he dma funy no.........

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Our Kid



* phot courtsey Google

It is easy to be a father of your child from the day your wife,girlfriend has the news that u are going to be parents. It takes time but at the end of the day he is your own blood and skin.

Now back to someone who has to accept the kid who is not his.It is difficult.It takes a lot of guts and emotion and mighty heart to accept that way.The thing here is your are being judged at every move you make and it is hard way or high way.
If you are harsh on the kid they go like "look at him ill treating the baby",however if it own father then the tone is "he is making the sure that the little one is not spoilt".How easy it is twist and turn words ne?

Give the Guy chance and if he sez he is having a difficult time tehn let him know that he is not required to feel stressed and can take his own time.
You might get angry when he yells at the kid,but let him deal with the kid.
Let him be himself with them.
Tell him what the kid likes and dislikes.
Tell him that it is difficult for you too,communicating helps.
Let the kid know that the man has the same importance as you and should be respected.
Make things easy.
You can be the bigger person.
Let the kid and him bond by going out together or let him make the meals for the kid or sketch with him.

When he sez "baby it is hard to accept it at a go and I am trying".Tell him that he is trying and that is the first step and tell him you love him for that more than ever...

It sure is hard at the beginning but as the days go by it becomes a Child's Play

Friday, January 18, 2008

things i do and don't

few days ago i was wondering in the streets of the city i call my second home. i reached there at 12 pm and waited for an hour for P to come and pick me up. that gave me time to sit and think of few things that makes me an individual

1.I am scared to sleep with the lights off
2.I am scared to think about tomorrow.I'd rather concentrate on today.
3.i read a magazine from the back to front
4.i have to have a cuppa coffee when i get up (no matter what time of the day or night it is)
5.i hate to place my bag on the left side of my table
6.i need to read a book in the loo
7.I am the kind who tries to be calm and different always
8.i keep thinking of gifts that i can pick up for close ones when i am rich
9.i have to have to use a chap stick even if my lips are not chapped...
10.i have to eat in this one particular plate and no other....

weird eh....there are many more stupid things like this that makes me what i am.........

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

wisdom tree


many ways have been discovered by humans to hurt themselves.one of those ways is to feel insecure about self. we often feel that when we see someone doing better or sometimes the more we fall in life the more the insecurity peeps in. this might not apply to everyone. it is just that at times we do not realize it. try and see if u are insecure about something and if you are then try and make the heart feel secure.

* picture courtesy Google

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

reunion


the woman in middle is yashoda amma,

the woman who took care of pills and mua and my son....

i owe a lot to her............

i know that she will be there in our hearts for ever and ever....

to you yashoda mai...

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Us

lost in the world is a little child,
running from corner to the center of the globe.

someone pats the child and asked,do you need directions?

no said the child, I enjoy the freedom to be lost and found,
it is a game i have been playing from the day i was born.


that little kid is you and me and the man,someone said his name GOD or SOUL

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Little finger


My sister-in-law and my brother have become proud parents of a little boy on the 26th of this December '07.
This bundle of Joy called Karan has me wrapped up around his little finger.He has the ability to cure any sorrow by a toothless smile or a wail louder than a volcano...may he bring all joy and luck to everyone in his life he encounters and may he be blessed.

Here's to my love Karan.................