Open House

I read this article in a Mag yesterday...

Open House

I am writing in my own words--Once upon a time there lived a couple in Delhi,the man and the women worked throughout the day and they came back home to there loved ones...However the loved ones included not only family but friends who lived in there house from all over the world. Apparently the house was open to everyone who was looking for a meal,roof on top or a warm hug.there was a German student who lived with them for 6 months.Another kid who came to their doorstep and went onto live with them for life.the lady of the house urged him to study,he did and went on to become an accountant in a leading firm...

Now isn't this absolutely wonderful and beautiful thing you come across. I don't think this kinda cause will be taken up by everybody.First hell lots of apprehensions,when a stranger comes in,who is she/he,how long will he stay? is he/she a good person? what if they rob us or steal from us? and many more......

I realised that once we open our hearts to others no harm can be caused and god forbid if any harm is done,then we learn our lessons and be careful. I really hope I have the guts to do this one day.

Smile Bank

I started this community in orkut a couple of months ago.Have i done a teeny weeny thing about it? no shame on me no. This was started by me to help the street kids in Hyderabad.To bring a smile on the little one's face.

So people help me tell me what should I do? I mean how do I approach these kids on streets and help them?? I really want to :)

anyone who lives in Hyderabad contact me on orkut for the same....

Profuse..

Today and days for long have been absolutely un productive (is there a word like that)...As usual I got up very late and jumped into shower.Got few calls from friends and family.Drove to a friends place to have coffee and landed in office.

So,you see there has been nothing unusual about the day.

Then I realised today happens to be Worlds Women's Day albiet!!

Here is my thanks to the woman who made a diff in my life..

Amma--She is born under the sign of Leo and true to her sign is a typical lioness.She is fierce and protective about her tribe.She is strong inside out and years have made her look old.She lost a son to death.Still she holds onto his thoughts and lives life for tomorrow.Her daughter is her hope and her grandson her future.She is one women who took our family into her hands when we hit rock bottom and survived every little obstacle.god bless her and her heart..Thanks Mom for being there...

this is how I feel....

Have I wished for anything more?
I wished for something that was available.
Had I not seen the future together?
Was I in denial all through this time??

Life my love has it's own ways,
It just showed me mine and yours.....
Would I want happiness alone?
Would I share it with you and my blood????

I respect the thoughts that flow across us,
like two streams joining one vast ocean....

CommitMeNt!!!!

Why wont he commit??? this is my dilemma for now.I have been seeing John Doe for like more then a year now and the sentence "where do go from here?"is still on hold. From my end I have explained myself clearly to him. He knows what I am looking for and want. I am not asking for him to loose his freedom or his persona. I am asking him to make me a part of it. I realised it is very hard for the male physic to think like women do....

It is like we are stuck in a time capsule for now..I can hear the tapping and the nerves are surely gonna break...

I can jump at the first sign of panic and save myself the heartache of attachment and endless tears,(which I did not cause i Love him) My friends say they will kill him.Yeah right I am the one who is in love and I know him better..So,relax my friends.It is my heart and his heart who are talking.

I can sit there on the turbulent seas of his indecisiveness hanging on for dear life and praying that I don't get tossed overboard before I find his emotional life preserver... but hey... should i bother that is the question "TO be or not to be"

Listen..

Now, this is a huge thing. On my end to listen to someone for a while...I was with my boss today.She was going on and on about her life and I wanted to say "hey stop I really do not want to listen to you".I got my own problems.So,please shut up....

Tell me isn't it strange to feel this way.I mean you want other to lend you an ear when you want and you ignore when they want you to?? I am normally not like this ,but generally end up this way. My friends and family think othewise..they say I listen to everyone else except myself..Shash sez the same.Infact he moves between me not payin attention to me giving ear to every ram,sita and geeta.....

So,go figure out and let me know wht is good...lending a decent ear or grabbing one by force......

Stop..dont move

I asked life to stop for me,
It looked at me and laughed aloud.
She said,u must be kiddin love,
I stop for none.
I asked her to try once,
She said I will ,the day time stops......

Future???

I am generally not a kind of person who is worried about future.Have been living life for the present and past never effected me in anyways.However,my thoughts have changed and I surprised myself this year.

I want to settle down in life.Yes,people that means I want to get married.Now I have been thinking a lot about it.I had numerous discussions with Friends,family and not to forget the one I am in love with.these have been taken into consideration.

Now,my friends and family think it is high time i get married and get myself a life.Is this all I mean I have a great life I thought?in fact do not get me wrong here.My life is great.My love though had different reasons.He has his right to have his own.He is not ready for marriage and thinks that we should not get married for a reason.

Well after these discussion I thought bout this and decided to wait.Then I questioned and asked wait for what? I mean if I want to get married and feel secure I bloody well have the right to think so.Don't I?

Initially I let myself and my guy give into his thoughts.Not to please him,cause at that point I too felt that I was being pressured by people around me.Then after a while I knew I was missing the part altogether.I am a modern,liberated women.I am a single mother.I brought my son into this world against all odds.SO ,where is the need for security.I already have one my son.But,I need security,i need comfort and I need marriage.I know the guy loves me and I know he will never be away from my heart.But,the thought of a home with my husband and my son fills me with joy.....I really don't know if that thought is wrong.............