Screwed up?

I wanted to talk to a friend today,tried her number and that was off.I then called my amma and spoke to her for a bit and felt better.Now here is the deal, I am pretty pissed off with this friend.I am in the same city that she is visiting and 2 days and no calls nothing.I did not even know that she was here.But,thanks to FB i am updated.

Sometimes and just many times V says I overreact and except a lot.but,then I say when you give the same,you expect the same.Some say don't except and I say hell, I do.That is how I am made and I am not willing to change few things in me.Like how to change? say "oh i do matter to them"?.Once I got to know the same friend had a major fight with her hubby and called this other common friend.I got to know,cause the common friend slipped tongue and then i asked lets say X,why she did not tell me about the fight?.Then immediately X called the common friend while i was there and i think asked her not to tell me much.Well that hurt as I consider this one X as few of my good friends.

X is also good friend with this one friend Y who thought I had ego and was jealous and said it straight to me and also used to walk out every time was in a party or a common ground.I spoke to this one patiently and told her that she has a problem and to deal with it.X at that time told me that Y was stupid to say that and btw I was the one who introduced X to Y.Now after what Y said about me,X id great friends with Y and i just cannot fathom on how X invites both of us to the same do.I am sorry i cannot ignore and it just does not get comfortable.Over the month I realized that Y is a good friend and we back as friends but not the same as we were :(
Now i think it is high time i give up all these relations and just stay "chill" as my mind and body is.There you go my frustration is out :)

That Sunday,This Sunday!

There were times on a Sunday, all I would do is sleep,get up,get brunch,go for a movie or chill at home with movies and then go for a party at night.

These are Sundays where I get up feed the baby,massage him,give him a bath,give aku a bath,feed him something,get some coffee and do the duties.get out for another shout for milk,serve lunch (thankfully i have a cook).dust the home,wash clothes and wait for another load to be washed,dry them and make tea and then do some other work.

Being a home maker is not easy and on top of it if you have no help then you go crazy.V helps me with the baby and does things when i do ask him to do.What I would really really like??? yeh some kind of...forgetting that word..you know when V knows what to do when and does not need to me to tell him what to do.That is what I want.

I was supposed to get help from in-laws, some maid,but that backed out ( i know somehow that it was someone who asked that maid to stay put where she was).In-laws is another thing and I will write about those stories later.

For now,I got time to update my blog and vent my freaking frustration out.Also a friend was supposed to update me on life and they just forgot I exist...yeh,I am having a hellish weekend :) with a nice movie that kept me lol in the early hours called GOA...watch it a neat,kickass Tamil movie....

What gets my B.P high

1.People from the Credit card companies.
2.People who think they know it all.
3.People who keep boasting about themselves
4.Unwanted crap on T.V.
5.My son crying for no reason
6.When my hubby says there has to be logic to everything and argues with me even when all i want him is to just listen to me and treat me like an ignorant!
7.People who are friends first and then turn into foes and never tell you why.
8.When parents give you the look (even when you are 31)
9.When In Laws treat you like you dont exist.
10.When the servant stays off work and gives you random excuse and expects you to pay for the whole month.
11.When you extended family interferes in every thing you do and want you to do it their way.
12.When friends get close to people who have back bitten you and think it is OK not to be discussed
13.When you sit for a story discussion with director,producer and their entire clan (the clan wants the hero to be super man and bat man together with lungi as outfit).
14.When a neighbor locks his kid in the bathroom to teach him a lesson and when you hear the kid cry and beg for mercy ( i hope that the kid does the same to his father)
15.When what comes in form of salary is more when it goes out as expense!
16.When people ask me to calm down and talk to me like i am a 1-year-old.

Many more but these are what I know tick me off like this!

LIVE AND LET LIVE

How freaking insensitive can people get.
A Minor girl was raped, this was at her tuition.
Minor kids blood is being sold in black market.
A housemaid was raped by an actor and he quotes" lust is bigger than an actor",
A girls hand is dipped in hot oil,the reason " I wanted to test if she was telling the truth,if she was, her hand would not have burned".that is what the accused said.Oh by the way he is on the run.

I am sure we all know that this is half a percent of what is happening around the world today.Is it sheer disgust to belong to human race anymore?. I thought we are people who feel and all that jazz.

I cannot seem to push this thought away for a while now. No matter what I do,these senseless,ruthless, idiotic,brutes are coming back to my mind. I wish we had to power to burn them by pouring tiny drops of acid and leave them till they suffer and scream. i would love to scream and tell them then, that this is how exactly the little ones must have felt.

Please for Kids sake,leave them alone. Let them grow up and let them enjoy the life they have. Who the fuck gave you the right to interfere in their life? Do you even know that they lived happily before without your bloody presence. The maid had no clue that you were around watching her every move. the little one at the tuitions had no idea that you were lusting for her body than her mind full of life ahead. that baby did not know that the prick was not an injection but a uncouth vampire,who wants to draw every tiny drop f blood.

Stay away from kids,stay away from humans period.In fact stay away from animals,plants all living things. Do not bother us anymore, we care and we do not care for fools like you. you are a disease which is spreading rampant,please people take a vaccination and try not to let these demons enter you soul.

Please spread the word.Take the Vaccination called HUMANITY. KILL THE HATE,SPREAD THE LOVE,RESPECT and above all FREEDOM to live and let live.

Hands that hold the world?

if she or he whoever it is gave us life, then don't you think that person should give us the direction of life? sometimes you get so tired going the wrong way that when the right path comes, you tend to ignore.you do this becasue you are done with taking these paths alone.

Personally I feel the guiding hand should be there with you and be visible instead of the invisible hand. you really have no clue where to hold the invisible as you cannot see it.

hands have been thre for me when i needed but only for their comfort.the day they came across the path for them,they just left mine.

So guide me and for god's sake show me the visible one..........

Take a Flying F***

"oh life is like that...you got to move on and take in that little bit of bitterness".

"What that hell was that supposed to mean? hello, I like life ,but was this life not supposed to be easy?.

Bitterness my A**. Get out of here , if anyone sez take it with a pinch of salt. I have done so many pinches of salt, feel i am in a sea filled with salt water....so anyone who is patronizing go take a flying F***